There's not enough room on the side of my blog page, so I'm going to start grouping links into separate blogs titled: Links Of Interest / More Helpful Links.
Sensory Mapping of Lip Representation in Brass Musicians with Embouchure Dystonia. By Hirata, Schulz, Altenmuller, Elbert, and Pantev. (PDF)
http://www.immm.hmtm-hannover.de/uploads/media/Hirata_et_al.__2004__Sensory_mapping_of_lip_representation_in_brass.pdf
The Challenge of Diagnosing Hand Dystonia. By J. Rosset-Llobet (PDF)
http://www.tmslab.org/publications/066.pdf
Leon Fleisher: Two Hands (video)
http://vimeo.com/6684412
Sex Prevalence of Focal Dystonia (PDF)
http://jnnp.bmj.com/content/60/2/204.full.pdf
Trigger Points Focal Dystonia (book excerpt)
http://books.google.com.mx/books?id=FrEmzwNOG_IC&pg=PA168&lpg=PA168&dq=trigger+points+focal+dystonia&source=bl&ots=BRrzto52bF&sig=w3Q2uNSTttU_Gl2ImB1uNr0pRso&hl=es-419&sa=X&ei=ooWwUMbCEoLm2QWpjoFo&ved=0CC4Q6AEwAA#v=onepage&q=trigger%20points%20focal%20dystonia&f=false
Joseph Meidt Xray Movie of Trumpet and Horn Player Embouchure.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tpOwuAMqFTA
Dystonia.org.uk - another good review of what musician's dystonia is.
http://www.dystonia.org.uk/index.php/about-dystonia/types-of-dystonia/focal-hand-dystonia/musicians-dystonia-musicians-cramp
Another site that explains Musician's Dystonia well.
http://www.fcart.org/distonia/english/
Axial Musculature
http://quizlet.com/4040527/axial-musculature-flash-cards/
Gray's Anatomy
http://prohealthsys.com/site/anatomy/grays-anatomy/
What Are Lips For?
http://www.theatlantic.com/daily-dish/archive/2008/02/what-are-lips-for/220420/
On Traumatic Injuries to the Lip and/or Tongue.
http://www.simplestepsdental.com/SS/ihtSS/r.==/st.32219/t.32774/pr.3.html
About Peripheral Nerve Damage.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peripheral_nerve_injury#Types_of_Nerve_Damage
About Hemifacial Spasm. By Dr. Azizzadeh.
http://www.facialparalysisinstitute.com/31/hemifacial_spasm.html
About Different Types Of Muscle Strains
http://www.momsteam.com/sports/track-field/safety/muscle-tendon-strains-types-classification-treatment
About TMJ Upper/Lower Splints.
http://www.healthboards.com/boards/tmj-disorder-temporomandibular-joint/903582-lower-splint-vs-upper-splint.html
Fibromyalgia Solved: A pathology, not in the mind. By Paul Montjoy.
http://communities.washingtontimes.com/neighborhood/steps-authentic-happiness-positive-psychology/2013/oct/17/fibromyalgia-solved-pathology-not-mind/#.Up6IWhIGPgc.facebook
What Your Doctor Will NOT Tell You About Fibromyalgia. By Dr. Paul St. Amand.
http://www.amazon.com/What-Your-Doctor-About-Fibromyalgia/dp/B001Q3M66G
On Myofascial Pain: Ropes and Lumps in muscles.
http://forums.prohealth.com/forums/index.php?threads/lumps-and-rope-like-muscles.89081/
About Piano Performance-related Injuries and the Taubman Approach.
http://www.wellbalancedpianist.com/pianoinjury.htm
and ...http://www.wellbalancedpianist.com/dystoniatestimonials.htm
On Feldenkrais Movement Therapy.
http://openatm.org/
Jerald Harscher's website: The Poised Guitarist (Very helpful rehabilitator of guitarist with hand dystonia).
http://thepoisedguitarist.com/
Greg Fellow's YouTube Channel - Spasmodic Dysphonia (vocal chord dystonia)
http://www.youtube.com/user/GregFellowsSD
Billy McLaughlin (guitar) - Advocate for Musician Dystonia Awareness. Some information on his trials and tribulations with Hand Dystonia.
http://www.billymclaughlin.com/dystonia/
Steven Leung - Violinist Recovering from Dystonia
http://www.violinist.com/discussion/response.cfm?ID=9051
Paula Brusky, Ph.D - Advocate of Musician Injury Prevention, and Music and Medicine.
http://paulabrusky.com/about
On Schools of Music Psychology
http://musicpsychology.co.uk/studying-music-psychology/
Flutist Jen Cluff Talks about Embouchure Dystonia Observation of other Dystonia Flutist. (About a quarter ways down into the blog you'll see some neat observations)
http://jennifercluff.blogspot.com/2007/08/seeing-again-mcghee-cds-wye-nfa-lip.html
The Truth About Piano Lessons (To Parents of Piano Students). By Karen Berger
http://musicalresources.blogspot.com/2011/07/truth-about-piano-lessons.html
How It's Made: French Horn. (I just had to throw a fun one in here!)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTvYxP9tjQs&list=PLgkm6q2GGDItRpEUoPMnZAfn9XRT94E1Z
A blog about a French horn player's journey with Focal Embouchure Dystonia; one of the only existing documentations of rehabilitation through videos and writing spanning over a decade. This blog shares resources, research, and information on FTSED and other music performance related injuries. Katie also advocates awareness, education, does presentations, provides guidance; and brings the musicians dystonia community together thru online groups, streamed interviews and conversation.
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Sunday, November 24, 2013
Geeking Out...
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Is Focal Task-Specific Embouchure Dystonia Prevention Possible?
The best thing you can do is try to understand the signs and symptoms thoroughly, and know the difference between dystonia and other performance-related injuries in the hopes of getting an accurate diagnosis when things get really bad; especially the difference between focal embouchure dystonia and overuse injury which are often mistaken as the same thing, but they are completely different.
The reason why overuse and embouchure dystonia are often mistaken as one another is because the symptoms during onset are very similar. The key difference is that embouchure dystonia does not elicit pain (yet it does come with a lot of tension/resistance when trying to play).
COMMON INJURIES & SETBACKS
With overuse injuries a player will usually go through a period of time where they are playing more, have added responsibilities, and they start to see a degradation in their higher register and usually start to exert abnormal pressure to try to hold it together and end up with swelling, pain, tingles, sometimes this leads to other injuries like muscle tears or nerve entrapment. The upper lip or obicularis oris in general starts to feel rubbery, stiff, sometimes there are slight tremors or twitches, and eventually if very bad, no ability to produce a sound occurs. Overuse can sometimes be a result of improper technique or bad habits, but not all the time. It can be as simple as ignoring signals of pain, or not taking them seriously enough and taking improper care. Unfortunately musicians are not taught enough about medical care or preventative care from strain injuries such as how to properly ice/heat pack, stretch, myofascial release, use of guards etc. Usually taking a month or two off from playing, ice packing/heat packing and rest improves things and playing resumes to normal. If it is a result of bad technique/habits, then focusing on those areas will show improvement.
If a secondary injury occurs like a muscle tear or Satchmo's Syndrome, a player will usual feel a striking/jabbing pain in the upper lip that feels somewhat like it's been pierced with a needle. Usually there is a bump/small lump in the upper lip you can only feel when rubbing the inside of the lip with your fingers. It will hurt when playing with the mouthpiece on that area and/or after playing for a short time in the upper register.
Never entrapment will feel similar, but mainly tingles in the upper lip, jaw, or other area of the face, and no noticeable bump or jabbing pain. I don't think this is common. There are some brass players that develop nerve entrapment in the upper lip due to a perturbing incisor tooth digging into the lip and there will be swelling that runs from the bottom of the lip up to the nose on the inside, tingling, sometimes a dullness to the pain. The tooth can be filed down or corrected with braces.
Both nerve entrapment and muscle tear early signs are tingles. If you feel any tingling at all, you need to take time to rest and properly take care of things. Even if you feel the tingles go away a couple hours after playing...it is not good enough to just assume things are getting better, especially if it occurs every time you play and/or on a consistent basis. You need to figure out what you are doing or what is causing the body to signal that something is wrong.
Bell's Palsy is when one side of the face is paralyzed/lacks mobility and the other side doesn't. This is very noticeable right away visually and physically. A player will find it difficult to eat, talk, there will be a noticeable droopiness to the paralyzed side of the face and lack of ability to move anything on that side, especially near the eye. Noticeable drooling, decreased taste, no ability to close or open the eyelid, pain and numbness behind the ear (where the facial nerves branches out from), and sometimes an increased sensitivity to sound; everything seems louder. The paralyzed side will feel extremely weak and sometimes there are twitches that occur.
TMJ - pain in the jaw joint, soreness around the back of the jaw, difficulty chewing or eating due to the pain, popping in the jaw, all of this on one side or both sides of the jaw. Sometimes lock-jaw...meaning difficulty opening or closing the jaw. Pain when trying to open the jaw wider. Sometimes headaches, and sometimes a feeling of unevenness in the jaw closure (teeth don't feel aligned), accidentally biting the tongue or cheeks. In low brass playing sometimes lock jaw. It is common to see TMJ in woodwind players such as clarinetist, sax, etc.
There are several other ailments a musician can encounter that I have not listed here such as tooth infections residing in the jaw, gland infections/mouth stones, other forms of severe nerve compression, other related dystonias like oromandibular dystonia, etc. It helps to educate yourself on the various ailments and trauma that can happen to the upper body and face, and know your anatomy and nerves, etc.
Focal embouchure dystonia onset is hard to recognize and diagnose because the signs and symptoms are very similar to other setbacks. During onset of embouchure dystonia a player will usually be going through a period of time with increased performance responsibilities or working a lot on repetitive practice preparing for something or in an environment where a lot of emphasis is focused on technique. There might be an embouchure change focus too. There are a multitude of things that are known to possibly harbor breeding grounds for dystonia. However, it is without a doubt a multi-faceted neurological disorder that occurs out of the blue and very sneaky to catch.
Like with any other injury/setback, they might be experiencing a lot of stress or taking on a lot of work, but with embouchure dystonia, despite stressors, usually the player is at the height of their playing career or feel their playing is the best it's ever been; things usually feel natural and easy and at peak performance ability. Usually they are late starters, extremely fast learners, high achievers, and not all, but most are are in leadership positions. Though it is not uncommon to see why professionals usually develop the disorder, amateur enthusiast do too and usually hold common characteristics.
During onset there is no pain. Yet a player will notice small things that occur that phantom technical/mechanical issues. For example, there might be a slight air leak in the lower register, or a slight tremble on notes in the lower register that come and go, or troubles with certain interval jumps that usually aren't an issue. There is a feeling of loss of endurance sometimes (not painful, but like can play something one time through, but the second time feeling a lot of resistance while playing and like there's a lot of overshooting notes, missing notes, or not being able to land on notes when doing certain interval jumps).
The common symptoms (yet not everyone develops every single one of these symptoms, so just because you don't have all these symptoms, doesn't mean you should just disregard it...it's usually a combination of any of the following) of embouchure dystonia can be: range-specific (having troubles playing in one register), dynamic specific (having troubles executing decrescendos but not crescendos or vice versa, troubles playing quiet, but not loud or vice versa), articulation-specific (can articulate scales going upwards but not downwards, or vice versa, or no ability to tongue at all, or can articulate at a fast tempo, but not at a slow tempo or vice versa), tempo-specific (can play things fast, but not slow or vice versa). Other signs are lock-jaw in low brass/woodwinds with no pain, aperture clamping (the aperture closing shut randomly while playing or spasming shut), if symptoms are most noticeable in the tongue (inability to articulate passages) or very intense it can carry over to other tasks like drinking out of a water bottle and sometimes speech (tripping on words). Most all, but not everyone, notice a lack of symmetry to the face - not so definite as bell's palsy, but one side of the face will seem less responsive than the other side. Air leaks are common as I stated before too.
Usually the player will increase their practice time or focus on correcting these specific issues with technique, or the opposite, trying to rest, but to find it only made things worse. The symptoms are gradual and they seem to layer on top of one another over time.
For example, I noticed a small air leak in my low register, then later on I noticed I had troubles decrescendoing while doing long tones, my muscles would give way. Then I couldn't do large interval jumps, I had to slur them. Then I had troubles tonguing things in descending passages later on, and when I looked in the mirror, my embouchure would look stable for 5-10 minutes, and the second time I tried to run through a passage, my embouchure started moving a lot all over (looked like I was chewing a wad of bubble gum in my mouth while playing). I started to notice loss of smaller interval control, and after focusing on my lower register studies, it made things worse, and after taking time off, I had uncontrollable and intense spasms and tremors.
Some players will go so far as to continue playing on an unstable embouchure due to performance responsibilities and/or obligations, and this increases a secondary injury factor. Some will develop overuse symptoms on top of their embouchure dystonia symptoms because they are forcing their embouchure to stabilize via pressure or just by continuing in general and result in swelling, etc. and at worse a muscle tear, and possibly TMJ/jaw strain or pain. Even if there is a secondary injury, usually after resolving it, the embouchure dystonia remains. The key difference is that overuse injury/syndrome and other injuries is that they can be prevented and/or cured with rest, medical care, and significant time off. Dystonia will only worsen over time with or without rest, and correcting things will not help either.
You can see why onset is so hard to catch and especially how it can be mistaken as other setbacks during the early stages. Even though we don't know the etiology of embouchure dystonia, we know that it manifests as a neurological disorder. Not only is it neurological, it seems selective, and with that said, it is most likely inevitable. There might be no stopping it even if recognized. Hand dystonia is much easier to catch and has some cases of prevention during onset, whereas embouchure dystonia, not so much.
Even if it was, the embouchure is extremely difficult to navigate while having dystonia and there are few rehabilitation strategies if none that have been documented, tested, or that can be applied in the hopes of prevention.
That is why I document my rehabilitation, because no one else has ever attempted to publicly in history.
EMBOUCHURE DYSTONIA PREVENTION
It is not realistic nor correct to tell musicians, "Avoid placing yourself in situations where you are playing more than normal, avoid bad technique or bad habits sneaking in, don't use too much tension, and avoid using too much pressure, try to take care of anxiety or nerves, etc. " BECAUSE EMBOUCHURE DYSTONIA IS NOT A RESULT OF BAD HABITS, BAD TECHNIQUE, PRESSURE, BUILT UP TENSION, LACK OF AIR SUPPORT, PERFORMANCE MENTALITY, or whatever else you want to try to re-label it as!!!!! (Sorry, I got a little angry there...but this re-labeling trend is part of the problem and a bigger issue to address in writing later).
By telling musician's to avoid common situations that we are all usually placed in at one point or another, is like telling a musician, "You might as well not try at all. Your safest option is to not play music at all, because you might injure yourself or develop a rare neurological disorder called dystonia."
If you notice a change in your playing and it seems to be of concern, your best bet is to keep a journal (written and/or video) observing your playing and document any changes over time. If you feel like it might be dystonia, focusing on standard technique or repetitive tasks in your playing will degrade you further. Avoid it if can, but even avoidance won't help necessarily. If you can take time away from playing, do so not to rest, but to carefully observe your symptoms and note changes.
If you feel it is embouchure dystonia, then stop playing immediately, remove yourself from your current environment if can, seek out a neurologist who has diagnosed and/or researches embouchure dystonia....though most will not diagnose you during early onset because it is too early to tell, they might (not guaranteed) provide you with some temporary medicine to try tetrabenazine/artane, risperidone, etc. that might provide temporary relief...however, these are used to suppress symptoms, not cure them, and there is no promise it will regress the symptoms. It is important to get tested in order to rule out any other possible ailments in the blood work and brain scans.
Other things you can do is try increasing your dopamine levels through dopamine supplements or anything that might affect serotonin too. You can also try tremor supplements that are not drugs, but nutritional supplements that can be found online. Look for supplements for essential tremors or tremors in general. I do find these have helped me, but again it's not the same for everyone. There's all kinds of alternative holistic therapies and supplements you can try.You can look at my left hand side-bar and it covers several alternative-medicines and therapies.
If you have dystonia, a sensory trick might work. Does touching areas of the face when spasms occur cause the spasms to stop? does placing something between the teeth cause things to stop? (like a cotton ball, mouth guard, etc.).
I also would suggest that if you think it is embouchure dystonia...and even if it is not....you should start implementing stretches in the upper back, neck, jaw, tongue, and face every day. This should already be a part of any routine, but not often taught to students. It helps take away tension from fighting the symptoms.
Sadly there is no preventative measures. Everything that I have suggested here can only aim to possible temporary relief, and/or reduce of symptoms maybe at best.
Like I stated before, educating yourself on signs and symptoms is best and seeking out help when it is time. After you have been diagnosed by a reputable neurologist, seek out a rehabilitation practitioner who aids in the recovery process.
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
Top 9 Things You Should Not Say to Musician's with Dystonia
1. "I'm sure there are some errors in your practice habits or way of playing that brought you to the condition you are in today. It must have been something you did wrong."
2. "It must be psychological. Stage freight, anxiety, or perfectionism."
3. "By the way, do you know this excerpt? Can you play it? Can you even play it with me?" or "I'm auditioning for this orchestra. How about you? Oh yeah, you have dystonia."
4. "I noticed you have a tremor in your low range. If you focused on improving your breathing, this would resolve a lot of your playing issues," or "If you focused on singing and hearing the melody (audiation) or on just the tone and nothing else, you can play it. If you can sing it, you can play it. If you can hear it, you can play it."
5. "Sometimes I think musicians with dystonia are just faking it. They want to avoid succeeding, so they develop a mental block. Musician's Dystonia is not a real thing. If you would just reach out to so-and-so (some professional musician who has never had dystonia)..."
6. "You should join an ensemble or enter this competition! Common, you can do it. It's not that bad."
7. "Expecting to overcome dystonia is not enough. You need to dream bigger. Maybe it's a confidence issue? You need to believe in yourself."
8. "Why not play something else like ___(enter name of least favorite instrument here)___. Why not try ___(enter name of least favorite music subject here)__."
9. "(Even though I've not taken the time to read your blog or witness how far you've recovered already or how you help others, let me give you some unsolicited advice). I can help you overcome your dystonia, even though I've never experienced it," or "I've overcome dystonia, I don't really care about your views, just my way of doing things, and I'm going to charge you $200.00 dollars a session, even though I can't guarantee you'll overcome it."
10. This is the best thing you can say to a musician with dystonia: "I may not understand what you're experiencing, but I support you and have faith in you. You're a strong person. Always remember what a great musician you still are...because that great musician is inside and has accomplished a lot. If there's anything I can do for you, let me know, I'll gladly listen."
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Acupuncture Sessions...ready, set, GO!!!
I've made the huge decision to seek out acupuncture to help with my peripheral trauma. Though I have had significant improvement in lessening my dystonic movement in my embouchure, the area where my nerve damage was is still causing me problems. I've noticed it more and more now that I've been working in my upper register again. I can't help but notice how limp it goes as I go higher.
I feel like a nerve is entrapped or stuck. Though I can function quite normally, its the sensation of feeling like my muscle in my upper lip is only half-functional. I feel it trying to move, but there's something preventing it. My dystonia symptoms also freak out more and come back pretty strongly after a few days of playing in my treble clef range. It isn't too hard to calm the dystonic symptoms down, but when I go into the higher register, it seems to dull the sensations around my embouchure. It doesn't make any sense.
After much deliberation, consideration, and speaking with a mentor and some extra guidance, I have decided to take the route of acupuncture. I feel I've come a long ways...regaining maybe 40% of my abilities, but I'm at a stand-still. There's only so much I can do, and I know there has to be some additional help to overcome what I'm dealing with.
I am really ecstatic and excited about my acupuncture therapy. At first, I was hesitant thinking about a needle or NEEDLES coming near my embouchure, but after reading the amount of research done on Acupuncture helping patients overcome Bell's Palsy, I find it miraculous, as it's known as a significant alternative treatment to neurological disorders...practiced outside of traditional medicine.
When asked why I never considered it before, I think it's because so often when dystonic musicians seek out medical help, we are lead to main-stream practice options such as botox injections, surgery, etc. that's way to harsh and can complicate things even more. I had known about the option of acupuncture before, but because the area where the damage was done had been tender when I was initially diagnosed, I had completely blocked it out of my mind as an option due to feeling it would hurt or make things worse. I definitely didn't want to bring any needles near my embouchure. But recently within the last couple months it was brought back to my attention the option of acupuncture due to meeting another horn player who overcame some embouchure and jaw pain and difficulties with acupuncture.
Anywhoo! Reading about the amount of cases that have overcome something as extreme as Bell's Palsy with the help of acupuncture, has left me feeling very hopeful. My acupuncturist says that because I have had my embouchure dystonia for so many years, it will take multiple treatments to overcome if possible.
Anywhoo, there's a lot of work to get done after a bit of a break. One of my best friends came out to visit this last week. He brightened my week up and we had a ton of fun hanging out! Was a good break among my hectic schedule!! Now, just to get some of my friends to move out here! :)
Also I haven't recorded a video in forever! I'm STILL waiting for my new mouthpiece to come in the mail. Apparently ordering it through my own job/work was not a good idea, as it got lost in the mail, had an invalid tracking number, blah blah etc. They said they are now sending it to my work place instead of my address, and go figure....it's the one week at my job where we can't receive shipments/orders due to our delivery person taking a vacation. LE SIGH. :-)
I feel like a nerve is entrapped or stuck. Though I can function quite normally, its the sensation of feeling like my muscle in my upper lip is only half-functional. I feel it trying to move, but there's something preventing it. My dystonia symptoms also freak out more and come back pretty strongly after a few days of playing in my treble clef range. It isn't too hard to calm the dystonic symptoms down, but when I go into the higher register, it seems to dull the sensations around my embouchure. It doesn't make any sense.
After much deliberation, consideration, and speaking with a mentor and some extra guidance, I have decided to take the route of acupuncture. I feel I've come a long ways...regaining maybe 40% of my abilities, but I'm at a stand-still. There's only so much I can do, and I know there has to be some additional help to overcome what I'm dealing with.
I am really ecstatic and excited about my acupuncture therapy. At first, I was hesitant thinking about a needle or NEEDLES coming near my embouchure, but after reading the amount of research done on Acupuncture helping patients overcome Bell's Palsy, I find it miraculous, as it's known as a significant alternative treatment to neurological disorders...practiced outside of traditional medicine.
When asked why I never considered it before, I think it's because so often when dystonic musicians seek out medical help, we are lead to main-stream practice options such as botox injections, surgery, etc. that's way to harsh and can complicate things even more. I had known about the option of acupuncture before, but because the area where the damage was done had been tender when I was initially diagnosed, I had completely blocked it out of my mind as an option due to feeling it would hurt or make things worse. I definitely didn't want to bring any needles near my embouchure. But recently within the last couple months it was brought back to my attention the option of acupuncture due to meeting another horn player who overcame some embouchure and jaw pain and difficulties with acupuncture.
Anywhoo! Reading about the amount of cases that have overcome something as extreme as Bell's Palsy with the help of acupuncture, has left me feeling very hopeful. My acupuncturist says that because I have had my embouchure dystonia for so many years, it will take multiple treatments to overcome if possible.
Anywhoo, there's a lot of work to get done after a bit of a break. One of my best friends came out to visit this last week. He brightened my week up and we had a ton of fun hanging out! Was a good break among my hectic schedule!! Now, just to get some of my friends to move out here! :)
Also I haven't recorded a video in forever! I'm STILL waiting for my new mouthpiece to come in the mail. Apparently ordering it through my own job/work was not a good idea, as it got lost in the mail, had an invalid tracking number, blah blah etc. They said they are now sending it to my work place instead of my address, and go figure....it's the one week at my job where we can't receive shipments/orders due to our delivery person taking a vacation. LE SIGH. :-)
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Busy Bee
It feels like it's been ages since I've found time to log in and write a blog! I promise a video soon. I've been super busy, but life is good!!!
I've been focused on a huge list of things that need to be completed at CU, and also with new employment too. I wanted to make sure that my work was also music-related, and luckily I've been provided that! I help students test/pick out instruments, upgrade to intermediate or professional models, and help finance them! It's provided a great learning opportunity since I get to deal with the "music business" aspect of the field, and better understand instrumental rental and finance contracts. I also enjoy meeting all the teachers, and students/musicians.
This last week I ordered a new mouthpiece to try. I've been playing on my gold plated Farkas DC throughout rehabilitation, but you know how much I love experimenting to see if a size difference helps even the slightest bit. So far, my G17 helps with my mid-to-low range where my symptoms primarily effect me, but it lacks comfort and even harder to pivot from range to range...so my larger interval jumps are even more difficult to execute.
I decided to give the latest Dennis Wick-Paxman a try, so went ahead and ordered a DWPAX-6. It looks like the size of a trombone mouthpiece, but I want to see if this peculiar shaped mouthpiece will "feel" different enough to help me re-sensitize and also help with the size of my lips. I have to say I'm quite excited. It's larger, and it may help with my lower lip that can't seem to fit into my other mouthpieces which is causes me a ton of difficulties. I wanted to try something much bigger than what I typically play on. I am excited and will upload a video once it arrives and I try it out for a bit!
As far as my playing, I've definitely been building up my high chops. Well...I mean...high chops for me now classify as my treble clef range (space C up to line F on the top of the staff)...haha! Not like before where I didn't classify anything as high playing unless it was well above the staff....baroque stratosphere.
I'm really happy! I've now started playing excerpts!!! My large interval movement/jumps have been getting better. It's hard to describe how, but here's a go at it.....I've found air attacks help me land on lower pitches after jumping off a higher one, causes me to not have as many spasms. Therefore, there is a TON of large movements in my face, yet the feeling of "lack of control" and chances of spasms/involuntary contractions has lessened significantly. Because it is hard for the viewer (visually) to tell the difference between what movements are dystonic and which are intentional/a result of my air attacks, it's hard to see the improvement.
I'm able to tell there's a difference in improvement, because I "feel" it...but I think for the viewer, the best evidence is in the way I sound, despite all the large movement. It "sounds" more comfortable to me and like it's "easier" to play, despite all the movement. For me, a dystonic movement is one that doesn't enable me...one that is out of my own control.
Anywhoo! There's a lot to catch up on, and hopefully I'll be able to keep up on the blog, at least once a month at the least. That's all I have to write for now! Thanks for reading, and for your support throughout my recovery.....I remain optimistic as always!
- Katie
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Treble Clef Range and Adding in Tonguing Begins!!!
I've been so happy since the recording of my last video! That recording went amazing and captured a lot of the exciting improvements! But even more exciting, is the fact that there's been more progress made since then. I will record a video soon! Lately I've been able to go higher, and noticed my chin finally started to flex more in my treble clef range. It's working hard just like it did in my middle range before. My lower lip that was sticking out, is much more flexible now, and I feel I have a little more control over it. I can practice for about 2 hours before my endurance is shot.
The downside about improvement as I am able to finally venture higher into my range is I have to take an even longer break after practicing. I have to take 4-6 days off just to make sure my face feels refreshed and ready to go again. I'm being very careful.
In the past, I was very concerned about how long I ventured into my treble clef range because it often, if not all the time, caused tension to build back up quite fast. I spoke about how if I played in my treble clef range for a bit, and then tried to jump back down into my low range or mid-to-low range, it would be difficult for my embouchure to relax again and for the tension to go down. Playing in my treble clef range (i.e. from space F up to space C) was very taxing on my facial muscles before. It also effected me in the way that I could play a repetitive passage in my treble clef range for a couple seconds before the tension took over and my embouchure collapsed. It was a huge combination of the tension restricting me, and lack of endurance....so two separate things, yet, both effected me when I ventured higher.
The tension from the dystonia is harder to tell how it effects me in my higher range, since you can't see any involuntary contractions, or twitches, but you can tell it limits my mobility as my face seems to have a hard time just relaxing in my higher register, and my chin, just like how it use to react to my middle register, couldn't make up it's mind on whether it wanted to flatten out or bunch...it fluctuates as I hold a note out.
However! Recently these issues have been lessening since last month. Today during practice, I noticed my endurance was a million times better than usual. As well, even though I felt tense in my face and thought maybe I was going through another relapse, it didn't take long to iron out the tension. Then after the tension was relieved, I noticed how much more the control of that lower lip sticking out was improved and felt less limp, and the movements in my face as I tongued was a ton less than before, and the movements in my face when I jumped around were less of that "stuck in the mud" type of feeling, even on my open harmonics it's less noticeable movement and difficulty in my playing. My muscles don't seem to be freaking out as much as they usually do, nor does it take a long time to relax them after playing in a higher register. The air leaks in my treble clef range didn't kick in until about 2 hours into practice, and also didn't show up on my "space C", but on my "line D"...so my range has expanded one more note! WOOHOO!!! :D I can usually play up to a high F, but my lack of endurance restricts me to only be able to reach the note 2 times if lucky. But, I can usually go through a practice with a range from "space C" all the way down to "pedal B" right below pedal F.
A lot of people might think...you can practice for 2 hours? Then you must have good endurance. Not necessarily. With dystonia, practicing for 2 hours includes a lot of breaks and waiting...a lot of stretches! More stretches than practicing, and also taking the time to message my face inside and out, or even eating ice or putting some in the side of my cheek while I take a break, and playing in my pedal range to relax.
Majority of practice time is spent on relieving the tension, and the last quarter (sometimes it's half and half) of my practice, near the end, I test my larger interval motions, or melodic passages, or test to see how my tonguing, etc. is, and I'm always doing warm-down or lower pedal playing exercises between treble clef playing just to make sure I counteract the high playing with lower vibrations/playing ...I feel the pedal range vibrations around my embouchure help relax the tension. I feel this has been a huge part of my recovery too! Thank god for my pedal range. It is my life safer, along with buzzing, and stretches.
Majority of practice time is spent on relieving the tension, and the last quarter (sometimes it's half and half) of my practice, near the end, I test my larger interval motions, or melodic passages, or test to see how my tonguing, etc. is, and I'm always doing warm-down or lower pedal playing exercises between treble clef playing just to make sure I counteract the high playing with lower vibrations/playing ...I feel the pedal range vibrations around my embouchure help relax the tension. I feel this has been a huge part of my recovery too! Thank god for my pedal range. It is my life safer, along with buzzing, and stretches.
Now that I feel it is safe to, and my muscles are adjusting to my treble clef range. With much carefulness, I am now beginning to focus on adding tonguing back into my playing, and holding notes out in my treble clef range....and of course...this requires the emphasis of good breath control to support it all; which thank god, I'm also able to do now.
I can't wait to record my next video!!!! However, it may be in a week or 1.5 weeks, since I need time to rest. So far things are going great!!!! I will be reconnecting my blogger account with my google+ profile since I quit facebook. I need to focus more on myself, and getting things done. Be back soon!
- Katie! :)
Thursday, August 29, 2013
August Shared Article Post
Link: Treating Musicians With Focal Dystonia
I really like this article (link above picture, can click on title), as it does a brief yet understandable outline of general treatments, and the references at the bottom are great. I'm a huge fan of Dr. Eckart Altenmuller's research and work. I'm always searching for his published articles. He's been researching musician's dystonia way before anyone knew practically anything about its existence.
I especially find the last paragraph over pedagogical and technical retraining, ergonomical modifications, and neuromuscular rehabilitation, to be inspiring, as it reinforces my positive thoughts on what I've been doing in my rehabilitation. I focus heavily on modifications and retraining as you have seen in my videos and writing. Though, I still have not given a single thought to even letting a needle come near my embouchure...meaning botox injections....No. Way.
I really like this article (link above picture, can click on title), as it does a brief yet understandable outline of general treatments, and the references at the bottom are great. I'm a huge fan of Dr. Eckart Altenmuller's research and work. I'm always searching for his published articles. He's been researching musician's dystonia way before anyone knew practically anything about its existence.
I especially find the last paragraph over pedagogical and technical retraining, ergonomical modifications, and neuromuscular rehabilitation, to be inspiring, as it reinforces my positive thoughts on what I've been doing in my rehabilitation. I focus heavily on modifications and retraining as you have seen in my videos and writing. Though, I still have not given a single thought to even letting a needle come near my embouchure...meaning botox injections....No. Way.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
August 5th Vlog: Melodic Playing - Post Relapse/After Relapse Has Passed
There's 4 more videos loading, but thought I'd publish the one that finished uploading.
This is actually the 5th video near the end of my practice session....and believe me, my endurance was running on empty by this time, but I was still testing out my larger interval motions and melodic passages to see what areas were most difficult. I wanted to post this one first since it's the only video I've recorded were all I do is play and don't speak. I was too focused on feeling things out.
*Note of caution: I don't usually ever play melodic stuff or etudes. It can be very tricky since I don't want to form old habits or make the tension in my face worse. I'm trying to rebuild a new pathway/way of playing with less tension. It is only now that I am able to test more melodic playing to see where the tension is when I try to play specific things. I do this every once in a while to see where things are from a broader view.. Anywhoo, this is not how or what I usually work on with my dystonic symptoms, but watching me play melodic pieces or passages can give a wider view of where the tension still effects me, that non-dystonic musician's might understand or see better, rather than me trying to explain it.
Video Part 5 August 5th - posted first:
Other 4 videos are the same where I'm doing more melodic playing, but talk here and there. You can probably tell by watching, I'm not having troubles with involuntary contractions/sporadic spasms....
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...Though you see a lot of facial movement going on due to tonguing, these movements do not feel dystonic...that's the best way I can describe it. Also even though there may seem to be a lot of facial movement it is less than what existed in the past too.
These facial movements do not hurt, nor do they feel out of my control but weirdly natural and relaxed. I feel like the facial movements are my muscles finally working together towards a similar task perhaps, but without the opposing (dystonic) muscle fighting back...so it feels natural. I also think partially why there's so much movement is due to lack of endurance...another very distinct separate feeling from dystonic-type feelings/movement.
The main issue that's most noticeable right now is regaining control/flexibility in that lower left lip. I've been trying to work out the tension there, but it feels limp or non-responsive more than tense, but slowly regaining mobility as you can tell it rolls in and out more often naturally on it's own, but still pretty tough to work with...stubborn! But at least it's not as frustrating to work with as working with relapse symptoms. I think that's the hardest obstacle to overcome is the glitch-like spasms and contractions that make it impossible to even hold a note or grab a note.
But since this was after a relapse/post-relapse where I have an extended period of less difficult time playing; you can tell how much better and at ease my playing is compared to the last video posted on July 31st where I was going through heavy relapse symptoms.
Video Part 1 August 5th:
Video Part 2 August 5th
Video Part 4 August 5th
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
July 31st Working with Relapse Symptoms - Vlog Practice
Yay! Finally got a video up. Haven't been able to find a place to record since moving to Denver. Luckily University of Denver music building was open yesterday evening...first time I heard myself play out loud/outside a mute in a longgggg time.
Yesterday's session was pretty rough due to the relapse symptoms. But good that I captured it on camera...approx. 1 hour and 20 minutes of playing. [Also, I'm going to upload a video of what my playing is like after the relapse has passed; Link will be highlighted -->here ...as soon as it's posted.]
You can see the areas where I struggle the most with the symptoms, but also how I work at ironing them out/reducing them. Tried to not talk a whole lot...but you know with me, I love talking/writing.
Anywhoo, here's the videos!! Lots of slow methodical practice. I was happy with the work done!!!
Part 1 - prep-work...and pedal range (working way upwards)
Part 2 ...more pedal range work and middle register, etc.
Part 3 - ...a bit of excerpts near the end. Thought I'd have a couple seconds of fun! :)
Part 4 ...arpeggios/open-harmonics, and octaves.
Yesterday's session was pretty rough due to the relapse symptoms. But good that I captured it on camera...approx. 1 hour and 20 minutes of playing. [Also, I'm going to upload a video of what my playing is like after the relapse has passed; Link will be highlighted -->here ...as soon as it's posted.]
You can see the areas where I struggle the most with the symptoms, but also how I work at ironing them out/reducing them. Tried to not talk a whole lot...but you know with me, I love talking/writing.
Anywhoo, here's the videos!! Lots of slow methodical practice. I was happy with the work done!!!
Part 1 - prep-work...and pedal range (working way upwards)
Part 2 ...more pedal range work and middle register, etc.
Part 3 - ...a bit of excerpts near the end. Thought I'd have a couple seconds of fun! :)
Part 4 ...arpeggios/open-harmonics, and octaves.
Sunday, June 23, 2013
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Welcome Back!?!?! (Some Observations)
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The view from my balcony! |
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My visit to DU with a friend. |
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Between my place and Boulder |
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Part of my work is in Glendale. |
Hey everyone! It's been forever since I've updated my blog. I started work in Denver on May 5th. It's been a little over a month since I last was on blogger. A lot has been happening, and I'm definitely busy still getting all my ducks in a row here. So far things are going great!!!!!! I'm all moved into a beautiful townhouse near red rocks, have been meeting/playing guitar with some local musicians, have lost 15 pounds (Yay!!!!), got a couple of students, and will be coaching a brass section in the fall. I'm excited!!! Especially for next year too at CU! :)
As far as my dystonia, things are still going good! I haven't been able to practice as much as I've wanted to, but this has been beneficial as it's paced out my practice/playing schedule; a break is always good now and then as long as I feel physically it doesn't makes things worse...and at this point in time, a break doesn't hurt me. It's like my friend Rhodri says - Recovery is up and down, but in general it's constantly on an upward scale. As I've slowly recovered, I'm obviously more of a believer now than ever before that I'm able to overcome embouchure dystonia. I can rest assured that improvement is on it's way every step I take and that there is no need to rush or worry like I had definitely done in the beginning/past. Yes, it's been painstakingly slow, but I look back and see how far I've come...and I know it is not all for nothing. I'm halfway there or more! :)
Today I was practicing, and I have some observations to note. I'm still working on my paper by the way! I had to post this on here though since I can't record. I don't have a practice space where I can play openly and record. I'm practicing with my silent mute at home, and because I have very close neighbors. I'm hoping I can find a place to practice openly and record again soon! It's been way too long without a video.
Anywhoo! Observations...
Right now a lot of stretching and freebuzzing has been my focal point. Huge emphasis on stretching though.
This is hard to describe. In the very beginning there was so much tension in my embouchure that I felt like it was STUCK in a very fixed tense position or movement....it was either stuck in an extreme pucker, or a extreme collapse/frown. I couldn't find a middle ground. The tension and contractions were so intense that I literally had no control or flexibility or sensation in my upper lip or around my embouchure. Slowly over time I started to iron out the tension and contractions by deprogramming my embouchure. I did this by playing on a collapsed embouchure at first for a very long time, with no tonguing, and focusing on just slurring chunks/sections of chromatics in my pedal register. The low register because the vibrations were less intense and allowed the muscle around my aperture to relax, and allowed me to build things from bottom up. I literally had to derive the movements/settings of my embouchure as far away as possible than the embouchure that I had known for so long and played on for so long. Basically a ton of miniscule painstaking frustrating adjustments in the way I played over a long period of time....I mean things as tiny as being aware of how contact there is between the lower lip and rim of the mouthpiece and if there needs to be less pressure or a tish more to allow the upper part of it to vibrate. It's like learning how to walk again. If you're an Olympic runner, your muscle memory and coordination is so entwined and ingrained over the years that you'd don't have to think about things....but once you have a huge injury/setback, it's literally like learning how to go from crawling to walking with a crutch, to literally being aware of every movement you make along the way towards recovery - like noticing what foot you should put more weight on, or if you have to bend your knee a little more to move forward, or how your hips play a huge role in movement, etc. You become so much more highly aware and in tune with your body - in what it can and can't do, and what it's ready to do.
Eventually I got to that point where I moved from a less collapsed embouchure to a more flexible embouchure...where my corners were naturally wanting to transition more on their own than me slowly nudging them while trying to not trigger a bomb of contractions. As my corners started to naturally relearn how to move on their own, the flexibility of my lower lip and jaw/chin started to kick in too and was a struggle too; since it controls so much more than what I was aware of. Anywhoo, soon I was able to control my lower jaw and lower lip support better.
Now I'm at a point where my embouchure is drawing me more towards focusing on the flexibility around my aperture, rather than corners or lower lip or jaw etc. I don't know how to describe this....
....it's like I'm focusing on the gracefulness/flexibility that develops between movements. Like in my stretches - the movement between point A and point B is the most important thing to be aware of. A good example is like watching a ballerina. They are very muscular and there are specific moves that require a great deal of control, tension, but also they are required to go from a very intense move to a very graceful delicate move...they have to be able to portray body language that requires both tense muscle movement and also graceful movement.
It's that release of the contraction that I'm talking about. If you squeeze your fist as tight as you can and then relax it, the tension goes down pretty fast as soon as you release your fist/grip. But with dystonia it's like that tension is stuck there...you try to release it and relax but it won't go down...it usually requires a ton of exercise and stretches etc to move it back into a more relaxed feeling/position.
This ability to move from tense to relaxed feeling in the embouchure is very difficult...no...extremely difficult with dystonia. It's the one thing I feel is the biggest obstacle to overcome with dystonia. I think that's why dystonia is so noticeable in the middle/low register; because the embouchure muscles are required to have the most about of control and flexibility in this register.
In my pedal register my lower and upper lip are more relaxed and vibrate like a flag and my corners allow me to adjust to changes. In the upper/treble clef range I feel like here it's easier to play even though it seems tighter playing, my embouchure is more able to adjust to the smaller aperture opening easier....and I know this is just an assumption...but I think it's because of the way we are built/designed to eat food and drink....when I go to drink out of a straw, or chew something, the muscles around my mouth/embouchure are similar to the setting I use to play in my upper register. I have a small upper bite, so when my teeth align when I blow into my horn, the upper lip is curved over the surface of my upper teeth...(I know I'm over-exaggerating) it reminds me of a beak on a bird. Or like how I see flute players embouchure when they blow out.
In the middle register/lower register it's difficult to play because it requires the duality of being able to adjust the tiniest feelings/things here and there. It's like I have to be able to relax and tense up in certain areas more often, and depending on what movement/pattern I'm playing. It's like the middle register/lower register requires so much more of the small details and adjustments of the embouchure to come into play. Sometimes I'll be holding out a low F# or low A and I notice the corners of my embouchure need to feel relaxed yet stable/tense, and my aperture needs to be able to relax but also squeeze in sometimes.
I don't know how to describe this...
...the middle register/low register is like a bringing together of opposing muscle groups, the synchronization of relaxation and tension..the synchronization of opposing muscle groups...and this is exactly where dystonia has the most difficult, because dystonia is a war between two opposing muscles. So to try to get them to work together in a register where they're both required to work together fluidly...not going to happen so easily! So frustrating!!!
Anywhoo, I'm now at a point where the fluidity and sensation in my upper lip is more focused on. The area around the aperture can relax and contract too...so this is an area where I'm now observing how it contributes to the fluid movement between point A and B. So lets say I'm playing a slurred passage from upper register down into my pedal register; before my upper lip would just sit there and let the rest of my embouchure do the work...and I'd end up with a double buzz....but now I notice the muscles around my aperture are doing there part to contract as I go into the upper register and relax/let go of that tension immediately as I descend into the lower register.
To normal players, the ability to contract and release a muscle while playing is not even thought about...but with dystonia, this is the focal point of my troubles...it's all about learning how to reprogram my embouchure, which requires relearning how to contract and release/tense up and relax my embouchure throughout playing, and to regain the ability to do it naturally over time...just like a person learning how to walk again...eventually it will be natural, but for a long time it requires a high awareness and observation of miniscule movements and redefining the way you move/play or adjust. It is frustrating to have to think about it...but there are moments where I don't have to...and it's those moments where I know I must be doing something right or on the right pathway to recovery! :)
Friday, May 3, 2013
Moving Forward!
Hey everyone! Well, it's May finally, and for once there isn't snow on the ground in North Dakota....but seems to be everywhere else. I am excited to announce I'll be moving! I'm actually moving this weekend to Denver Colorado and starting my new job. I'm really looking forward to returning to this beautiful gorgeous state, and so thankful for all the people who have offered to help me out in this abrupt change. The sad news is I may not be able to attend to my blog for quite a long time. I have a lot to do and accomplish as I transition to my new place of living. Thank you to everyone who has read my blog and kept up with my dystonia updates. Things are still going great, so maybe at some point I'll be able to post a video again. For now, goodbye, and see you in the future at some point!!!!! Love and hugs!
Sunday, April 14, 2013
I GOT ACCEPTED!
I just received the news that I got accepted to the University of Colorado Boulder School of Music!!!!!!! It will be a lot of hard work, but I am definitely ready and looking forward to this new beginning!!!!!! :-) So much to be grateful for and the long journey it's taken to get to this point!
Monday, April 8, 2013
Mouthpiece Experiment
Okay. So the G17 cup isn't helping me cope with my dystonia. I tried it because I thought it would help with my lower lip that sticks out of my mouthpiece. I also was curious how my embouchure would handle the less resistance again. But nope...neither helped. So tried a bunch of other wide rims...nope. Maybe it's not an issue with sealing my pudgy lower lip left side in? Soooo I know it was a bit risky, but I tried to play more on my right side setting to see if that would help; usually this never helped in the past, it just caused difficulties with muscle movement. But, this time I think because my jaw has regained control and my left corner has more control and flexibility that IT WORKED!!!!!!
I know it sounds weird, but it was like my heightened awareness over observing my dysfunctional embouchure over a long period of time allowed me to notice subtle differences or shifts in my playing. I felt and saw my muscles on both left and right finding a happy balance in the setting I experimented with. I had 2 important observations:(1) My right side provides stability and control, while my left is more relied on for flexibility and pivoting. I think so often we think of the aspects of our embouchure grouped as Lower lip/upper lip coordination, corner and chin control coordination; where our upper lip provides flexibility and lower lip stability, and our corners provide stability while the chin helps with flexibility and movement between registers too.
But I also noticed that our pressure points vary in registers, and are most noticeable in areas where I pivot. So I realized I rely on the right side of my embouchure right now for stability and control, while my left side and lower lip work together to provide flexibility in the areas where I pivot...so in my middle register where I transition between lower and upper range. It's a weird analogy, but it seemed like my right side is like a flag pole firmly holding my setting in place, while the left side was like the flag being able to move back and forth between the ranges with fluidity.
I know the embouchure is a complex thing to understand, so these are just observations in my own playing. What muscle groups or aspects of my embouchure do what...how they function in my playing. It's interesting to see how it's developed over time. So I'm not sure if this is what it will be like in the long-run (this stability on the right side), or if it's just temporarily this way until my left corner and lower lip control improve....but I think maybe it will be this way in the long run because it felt so natural. It didn't feel awkward like I had to try hard at all to play. It's pretty easy to tell the difference between the feeling of dysfunctional movement vs. natural functional movement....it's not frustrating as hell. lol!!
WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I played all of my scales 2 octaves both fast and slow with no spasms or contractions!!!!!!!!!!!!! I even went back and tried to play them loud, then soft, and back and forth to see if it would cause loss of control (because usually it's this change in dynamic that triggers symptoms). There were a couple of trouble areas, but mainly just with the pivot due to lack of endurance from playing scales over and over again. I had so much fun!!!!!! So sticking to my Gold Farkas DC.
I know it sounds weird, but it was like my heightened awareness over observing my dysfunctional embouchure over a long period of time allowed me to notice subtle differences or shifts in my playing. I felt and saw my muscles on both left and right finding a happy balance in the setting I experimented with. I had 2 important observations:(1) My right side provides stability and control, while my left is more relied on for flexibility and pivoting. I think so often we think of the aspects of our embouchure grouped as Lower lip/upper lip coordination, corner and chin control coordination; where our upper lip provides flexibility and lower lip stability, and our corners provide stability while the chin helps with flexibility and movement between registers too.
But I also noticed that our pressure points vary in registers, and are most noticeable in areas where I pivot. So I realized I rely on the right side of my embouchure right now for stability and control, while my left side and lower lip work together to provide flexibility in the areas where I pivot...so in my middle register where I transition between lower and upper range. It's a weird analogy, but it seemed like my right side is like a flag pole firmly holding my setting in place, while the left side was like the flag being able to move back and forth between the ranges with fluidity.
I know the embouchure is a complex thing to understand, so these are just observations in my own playing. What muscle groups or aspects of my embouchure do what...how they function in my playing. It's interesting to see how it's developed over time. So I'm not sure if this is what it will be like in the long-run (this stability on the right side), or if it's just temporarily this way until my left corner and lower lip control improve....but I think maybe it will be this way in the long run because it felt so natural. It didn't feel awkward like I had to try hard at all to play. It's pretty easy to tell the difference between the feeling of dysfunctional movement vs. natural functional movement....it's not frustrating as hell. lol!!
WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I played all of my scales 2 octaves both fast and slow with no spasms or contractions!!!!!!!!!!!!! I even went back and tried to play them loud, then soft, and back and forth to see if it would cause loss of control (because usually it's this change in dynamic that triggers symptoms). There were a couple of trouble areas, but mainly just with the pivot due to lack of endurance from playing scales over and over again. I had so much fun!!!!!! So sticking to my Gold Farkas DC.
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Hope
Friday, April 5, 2013
Thursday, April 4, 2013
(Video) Happy Easter! Some Overtones
Meant to post this sooner! I mentioned some important things in my video since I've noticed someone online who wrote about how he thought my rehabilitation just took practice. So he definitely doesn't understand that embouchure dystonia is a lot more complex than it seems. The exercises used as part of the physical rehabilitation may be simplistic (ex. buzzing, freebuzzing, stretches, chromatic slurs), but as I've mentioned before in many blog posts that the exercises have a different purpose than what they originally are meant for; it's the mental awareness, the way I physically approach my instrument, and changes in external factors which all make a difference and contribute to this very personal process of rehabilitation. It involves much more than this too. I think that is why dystonia is so hard to explain...it's a neurological movement disorder, so it takes a lot to regain abilities, so any playing basics are equivalent to trying to run a marathon on crutches with a broken leg.
This video I show some enharmonic exercises which I use as a mean to support the development of my lower jaw control. I definitely couldn't have done this 7 months ago, or a year ago. As there are endless tiny abilities and movements I had to overcome and regain in my playing. It isn't until recently I've been able to work on overtones, long tones, and move into my mid-to-upper range either. So definitely not something I'd work on in the beginning or middle'ish stages, as it would usually cause too much tension built up right away.
An interesting note is that I can slur fine and have good control over my arpeggios while using standard fingerings. For example if I played C-E-G-C with the fingerings: open-2-1-open, I can play it with ease, but as soon as I play it as an open harmonic...meaning C-E-G-C as open-open-open-open, it's very difficult to control. I think naturally because the partials are closer and less defined of a feeling to grasp onto. It's like trying to hit targets with an arrow while swinging on a rope, rather than using stepping-stones to align with your target as they get higher and higher. I also have to monitor my breath control more now, whereas before it also use to be something that didn't help my playing (i.e. full breaths/steady stream of air), but now does and is necessary.
An interesting note is that I can slur fine and have good control over my arpeggios while using standard fingerings. For example if I played C-E-G-C with the fingerings: open-2-1-open, I can play it with ease, but as soon as I play it as an open harmonic...meaning C-E-G-C as open-open-open-open, it's very difficult to control. I think naturally because the partials are closer and less defined of a feeling to grasp onto. It's like trying to hit targets with an arrow while swinging on a rope, rather than using stepping-stones to align with your target as they get higher and higher. I also have to monitor my breath control more now, whereas before it also use to be something that didn't help my playing (i.e. full breaths/steady stream of air), but now does and is necessary.
You can see in the beginning how much my embouchure control was limited, but near the very end of the video you can see how much it loosened up and I was able to do the same exercises with a little more control. It's this small amount of control and ability to relax my tension/dystonia symptoms that make a world difference in my playing! Baby steps = huge progress...even if it takes many many months to go from what seems like step 1 to step 1.5. Should be posting another video today or tomorrow!
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