Monday, January 11, 2021

Upcoming: Musician's with Dystonia and Injuries Live Talks 2021!!!

Get ready!!! The Musician's Dystonia & Injury Live Stream Series is going to be presenting new guests soon!!! Looking forward to doing interviews with musicians and friends all over the world who want to share their journey and advocate for music performance-related injuries. 

If anyone else in is interested in being interviewed, just PM me and I'll get it organized! 💕📯


Sunday, January 10, 2021

Embouchure Dystonia: Overcoming the Involuntary Spasms and Contractions When You Can't Play

 

How I Currently Manage My Embouchure Dystonia Symptoms

 


How I Currently Manage My Embouchure Dystonia Symptoms

Ice Pack Roller and Rose Quartz Roller

For those who have embouchure or cervical dystonia and find ice/heat packing helpful; I wanted to mention that I recently bought my first ice-pack roller!!




I find it much better than the standard ice pack! It helps when I have been playing a lot, as I notice when I really get back into heavy playing, my muscles both overly-tense/contract and sometimes swell around the massetter in particular; especially on days where the FD is flared up more than normal. It helps to use the roller around my jaw joint since that tends to bulk up the quickest over time. I noticed an immediate difference and it feels great.

Also the rose quartz roller (which I never thought of using before) is great for massaging sore muscles, and it has both a large and small roller attached. I still do fascia release/myofascial stretches in combination, because I think both internal and external approaches work best for me. 💕 

Ohh! I also take collagen peptide supplement pills and my joint (especially wrists and ankle) has improved drastically. But it takes about 6 weeks of taking it 2-3x a day to see a physical difference - even in appearance/skin since it's originally used for that.

Usually around this time of year with weather changes bones/joints start to hurt. It’s nice to not rely on Tylenol or Aleve rarely if ever. A bit eye-opening I have to say when you’re use to being in pain! 😊

#musicianshealth #musiciansdystonia #embouchuredystonia #musicianinjuries #hornplayers #brassplaying 🎵

Horn Snippet: Merry Christmas Horn Solo (Brass Quintet)

#musiciansdystonia #livingwithembouchuredystonia #musicianinjuryawareness

A huge thanks to Hayley for recording this (Merry Christmas)!!! Had to crop everyone out, so apologize for the weird angle or closeups. It’s a great representation of my current level of playing abilities despite being plagued with Focal Embouchure Dystonia. 

Anywhoo! It’s taken years to get back to a place of sounding somewhat decent enough to feel comfortable playing within a group again.... or even to play performances again. That’s been the greatest blessing, as I know it could be a lot worse. I first started experiencing onset symptoms of Musicians Dystonia 13 years ago.

Still there are really bad days, but the good days out number relapse symptoms days, and things seem to get better every year. I am really happy and humbled that my body/embouchure has allowed me to retrain ....and to be able to hear my sound come out the bell and ring in a hall again. 

It’s nothing short of miraculous to beat the odds to even a slight degree when it comes to this disability. I thank God so much for hearing my prayers. There has been a lot of blood, sweat and tears over the years....literally. There still is a hole in my heart for missing out on my dream. But I try to not focus on that and look at the positive.

I’m so thankful to play in this brass quintet with my twin sister (trumpet), my brother-in-law (trumpet/picc), and Dan and Bruce (low brass power). You guys are the best! I wouldn't feel comfortable playing among anyone else....and so happy to be playing along with your recognizable voices/instruments. Means so much!!! 🥰💕📯💕📯💕📯💕📯💕📯

- Katie A. Berglof

Horn Snippet: Jurassic Park

 5 second (internal) conversations with your FD. The struggle is real...

Me: 😍 “Let’s play this for fun!”

Focal Dystonia: 😠 “Nope.” 🤐

Me: 😤🔥 “Yes!” 🤛

FD: 🤭 “What did you say?!?”

Me: ⚡️😎....”That’s right! Give me some leeway, because I’m not going to ever let you stop me from playing. Don’t care if I have to crawl or use what little motor/sensory controI I have left, just to get my way through 4 notes! This is happening whether you like it or not, so gonna have to deal!!” 😉🔥

Horn Snippet: Bizet (Brass Quintet)

(2 of 2) Will need to expand to full-screen to see facial movements. During brass quintet rehearsal we ran through some Bizet, and I wanted to capture it on camera! 

This is a particularly difficult part for me because anytime there are simple repetitive articulation patterns, short rests that require quick sensory feedback, embouchure dystonia is wicked awful. 

I started off struggling with getting separation between the notes and then eventually it kicked in, but you can see how much the muscles in my face are moving and working just to catch up and play in the middle register over and over again. 

I had a lot of fun though and so happy I get to play with my twin sister and her husband (on trumpet) and our friends. I have surgery at 5:30am in the morning (thus my lack of effort in fixing my hair), so this was my last rehearsal tonight for the next 2 months.


Horn Snippet: West Side Story (Brass Quintet)

 (1 of 2) Will need to expand to full-screen to see facial movements. Trying to get through some of the solos in West Side Story before Brass Quintet rehearsal starts. One of my many challenges with Embouchure Dystonia is that it makes descending more difficult than ascending...a task-specificity trait. Still happy my high range is slowly coming back!!! Woot! Last rehearsal before surgery, so didn’t bother to fix my hair. Scheduled for 5:30am! Will be waking up in a few hours...

Saturday, January 9, 2021

Alpha Females from the Ashes


From dust and ash there’s a phoenix rising...✨🔥✨💕

#selftransformation #rebirth #transmutedarktolight #empowerment #courage #conviction #boldness


This is me. Fo sho! 💕 I am a Gemini/Sun Sign ♊️, with Pisces Rising ♓️, Leo Moon ♌️🌙 , Jupiter in Capricorn/10th house ♑️, Mars in Scorpio/8th house ♏️.....🥰✨ I may not be great at keeping up consistent communication, but when I do attempt it or reach out, it’s with those I know who truly “get me” and whom I trust the most over the years. 💕
 

Happy New Years 2021 and Exciting Stuff


Age 13 VS Age 36! We've been through a lot Lady Francis (my horn's name), yet, we're still together after all these years! Even through focal dystonia and back again. 📯
Who wouldn't love this cat filter applied to their selfie at the midnight hour on New Years Eve?!?! 


Guys. I haven't owned an orchestra folder this nice in over a decade!!! WOW! (Except it's for Brass Quintet!....IN LOVE!!!)


Never been more excited to have a fancy folder made specifically for me! Thank you to Hayley (our trombone players wife) for custom making these and ordering them for our group (they are the color dark green by the way!)


I'm so happy this year to have started my business "The Divergent Musician" and more social groups online! It's brought together people who are interested in the same things. Much love and deep appreciation for finding friends I can be eccentric self around and feel safe! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

 

Merry Christmas, More Horn Snippets (Brass Quintet), and Family Fun






 

On Recovery


 

Thursday, July 2, 2020

Focal Embouchure Dystonia: Devices, Equipment, and a Few Daily Musts for me in 2020!

I've been meaning to write this blog post for a while! I'm writing this in a hurry, so will come back and edit when can...
  • Since 2011, I have been playing on my gold plated Farkas DC, which I've stated before and mentioned how it provides a decent amount of back-pressure which is kind of like a crutch that helps hold me up. Yet, it has such a beautiful tone. It cuts into my endurance though, but it allows me to manage my dystonia symptoms more easily, so I'm willing to take that compromise. It's not a free-blowing mouthpiece that cuts through an orchestra like the typical mouthpieces I use to play on pre-dystonia. Before, I played solely on Moosewood Mouthpieces (i.e. B12, B16, and RBS16 Vienna Cup, and Megamoose; with a Lawson rim). 

    My current mouthpiece:


    An example of the Megamoose for comparison (I don't own one anymore, but very happy I returned to my original mp): 



  • The Tens Unit I use(d) is the model 7000, 2nd edition:
    https://tensunits.com/products/tens-unit-7000-tu7000-original-tens-professional-unit-fda-approved 

    To find out more about what tens units are used for you can read this article here: https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/transcutaneous-electrical-nerve-stimulation-tens/ 

    I used a TENS Unit in the past to help with my jaw pain and upper back tension, including fascial soreness which came about in 2013 and I resolved in 2015/16. It also helped relieve tension after intense dystonic relapses.

    Later on after myofascial release therapy helped get rid of my jaw pain and tissue build-up. I started using castor oil which was more effective than ice packing, heat packing, massage, and TENS unit combined! You can read more about my myofascial release therapy and stretches in a video on the left hand sidebar on my blog under "highlights". 

    I still do myofascial release once a week by myself if playing a lot. I no longer require TENS Unit, but definitely relied on it direly back then. 

  • Castor Oil Pulling: This is a must for me after every rehearsal, concert, or practice session. I gently swish 2-3 tablespoons of castor oil in my mouth for 30 minutes, spit it in the garbage, rinse mouth with water, brush teeth, (then myofascial release afterwards - once a week only). If didn't play very long, I don't have to do this at all, but if an hour long intense playing session or I feel any tension in my face whatsoever, I will do a pull.

    Most people think of castor oil as a hair product or laxative, but it's actually one of those age-old remedies and a powerful anti-inflammatory that is effective when having TMJ problems, muscle pain, soreness, tooth pain, or any type of joint or muscle swelling anywhere in general. It has several benefits.

    I originally started using it to help keep my teeth clean, since oil-pulling is suppose to be better than mouthwash these days (I accidentally purchased it, instead of coconut oil, which is what most use for mouth cleanser), but found it was helping the tension in my face. I looked more information on it and read stories about how people found it helped them with severe jaw pain, mouth problems, salivary gland problems, and muscle problems. I use it all the time. Cannot live without it and so glad I came across it by accident.

    You can google more information on castor oil benefits.  Here is a photo of what I use. It has to be cold pressed and hexane-free. This is where I get it on amazon: 
    https://www.amazon.com/GreenIVe-Castor-Pressed-Hexane-Exclusively/dp/B07QYC559Q/ref=sr_1_23?dchild=1&keywords=castor+oil&qid=1593744595&sr=8-23




  • Power Lung: http://www.powerlung.com/region/us/models-accessories/powerlung-models/trainer/ 

    I use this for breathing exercises. However, I do have to mention that the first year I had it, I had troubles using it because my embouchure dystonia was so bad that it kicked in when I tried to put my lips over the mouthpiece. So I actually found that it was easier to put my lips "against" the mouthpiece and blowing air through it that way.  So that's how I managed using it for the first year. No regrets, because eventually I was able to use it the way intended.

    What I love about this device is it has resistance settings for BOTH the inhale and exhale. You can just naturally blow air against various resistance settings and what you are comfortable with. If I don't have it on hand, I just use my mouthpiece and cover the end of the shank with my pinky by various degrees, but the smallness of my mouthpiece usually triggered my dystonia back then too. Now I can use my power lung and my mouthpiece with no symptoms. This device resistance settings also helped me with regaining control of my corner breathing, which was very difficult in the beginning.



  • P.E.T.E. Embouchure Trainer: I make sure to use this separately away from practice time and rehearsals just because it definitely can be easily overused and the muscles need time to reset after using it. So don't play right away after using it. I usually wait a few hours before playing, and I only use the device for about 5 minutes of work and sparingly.

    What I like about it, is again, you're practicing resistance training; using your muscles to grab/grasp the disc and hold on. Even better is that instead of dealing with resistance such as back-pressure from a mouthpiece or instrument, we’re dealing with resistance from the opposite side of the lips (inside the lips) with an object. With dystonia we don't get a lot of ways to practice keeping our strength up because we can't play. So this is one of the various ways I do that; including free-buzzing and mouthpiece buzzing. But these forms of strength training definitely are NOT a replacement for working on ones actual playing, so use it sparingly and only when you feel it really is helping. I like to use it to change things up...as with dystonia, change in sensation and ways of doing things is sometimes a very good thing. I also use it to help with stretches too. And in the beginning stages of recovery I use mouthpiece buzzing and free buzzing in a completely different way than intended and definitely not as a strengthening tool...been meaning to write a post over this too.


  • Guitar Foot Rest: I know this sounds weird. But for a while I found this helpful. For a long time I had to play with the bell on my leg, but my horn would always be at a weird angle. By using an adjustable guitar foot rest under my right foot, it helped me get the correct position for the angle of my lead pipe. I could not play with my bell off my leg for years. My dystonia symptoms were way too overpowering in the beginning and playing off the leg was too unstable. I don't require the foot rest anymore, but I do still practice with it at home sometimes because I really like it.



  • DAILY MUST: STRETCHES. As usual. Always, always, always!!! Upper back, shoulder, neck, jaw, tongue, face - both inside and out!

    I also want to mention something here I haven't posted in previous blog posts or videos, but will soon. Focal dystonia tends to affect our bodies either from upper body vs lower body, or left side vs right side. For me, the left side of my face has less sensory and control than the right side. The right side of my embouchure tends to do a lot of compensating.

    It is not easy to find which muscle groups in the face lack more or less control; but one way you can find it, is by practicing very slow natural movements (away from the horn).

    For example: Try to raise/arch your right eyebrow very slowly while looking in a mirror. Observe if it feels like it does it independently. Now try to do the same with the left eyebrow and see if it can move on its own as well. What I found is there where certain muscles that I had in my face (depending on the movement) that lacked less control or independent movement. I simply found this by practicing various facial expressions and movements. Try it and see if it is the same from side to side or any areas where things flare up more.

    You can do the same with the neck. What is your range of motion? Try sitting with good posture with your back against a wall. Tilt your right ear to your shoulder while looking in a mirror. Observe how far your neck bends and if with ease towards your shoulder. Now try the left side. Is it the same or different? Is there a huge noticeable area of restriction?

    Testing basic movement and by practicing stretches GIVES US a layout or map of our areas of lack of function, our restrictions, and our range of motion. This is another area that journaling comes in handy. 

    JOURNAL! Journal! Journal! Be scientific! - like Jonathan Vieker says. Observe and record all habits even if it's basic stuff like the food you eat; especially in the beginning stages of recovery or during onset of a possible injury or dystonia. 
  • Lumbar Back support: Whenever you can, start implementing back support and relief now! Back pain is mankind’s #1 Achilles heel, and it’s very common to have it with all dystonia types. I use this back support device which comes with a pamphlet of stretching exercises, and two types of back/tissue massage balls (which can also come in handy for myofascial release around the chest and neck area). I also (not posted here) have a back strap device/splint that helps keep my back straight when sitting at a desk and fits under my shirt.



  • DAILY MUST: YOGA. A mat is inexpensive and very portable to take to work or anywhere! That's all I'm going to say here. Some form of movement exercise that helps the upper body; avoid tension-forming exercises like weight lifting, go for more graceful movement such as tai chi, Alexander Technique sessions also help in addition. Also will mention here, additionally, stepping away from a screen or cubicle and going hiking and getting out in nature helps my overall well-being too so much!



  • DAILY MUST: MEDITATION OR MANTRAS. Something to center your focus and mind before you start diving into rehabilitation work. This goes double for those who are just starting their journey. There are several wonderful guided meditation videos on YouTube. Other forms of focus are "Tapping Meditation" or visualizations of relieving tension from areas of the body. It can simply be whatever you find calms and centers yourself; anything ranging from aromatherapy, to sipping tea and listening to music before you start, and just getting yourself into the right mental place of "mindful observation” so that you are tuning into your body with a calm nervous system and not reacting emotionally or critically to the dystonia and instead going with the flow.

    Not to get off topic, but it’s important to make time in the day or week to take care of yourself inwardly. The best advice given to me ever was: "Go to work for yourself before you go to work for anyone else!" Put your needs first daily and get into the routine.

    So first thing in the morning, do what YOU need; whether that's prayers, meditation, exercises, relaxing, cooking, or quiet time. Don't pick up the phone and don't check your to-do list. I make it a rule of thumb to not check my phone until I step foot in my office at work. I also turn off all push, SMS, and e-mail notifications for Facebook and social apps. They can wait! And I can always manually check it. Don’t need notifications.

    I also make it a rule to not reply to any emails after a certain time of the day. And a rule to turn my phone completely off when in the company of others if possible (unless an emergency or awaiting a very important call). If you have things you need to do in a timely manner that day, then set timers and reminders in a calendar or watch or prepare for it the day prior; but do whatever it takes to avoid going into "Sigh! What do I have to do today?" mentality or stressing about all that needs to be done as soon as you wake up.

    Learn to put aside that time in the morning to live for yourself. Time management is key and make yourself solitude/alone time a priority. It is your birthright to participate in happiness and take care of yourself first and foremost. 

 
  • DAILY MUST: DRINK WATER. Believe it or not, a full 2 bottles before and after ever practice session. It really helps, and LOTS of it! Calming your nervous system helps you tune into your body, but also keeping your body in a state of wellbeing and running on its primary form of energy and cleanser is necessary too. Just like an athlete, or a person doing a intense workout session, or someone doing heavy work, or even going into surgery...we are ALWAYS required and asked to drink lots of water before hand or given liquids as a pre-requisite.

    Another quick daily must which I've written about before is upping my dental/oral health; which my water flosser, castor oil, electric toothbrush, and dental kit really help with. I especially love using the tongue scrapper as disgusting as it seems. Where has it been my whole life?!?!

Topiramate: is an anticonvulsant medication and it works by decreasing abnormal excitement in the brain. Usually this is used for seizures.



Oddly enough, I am taking this currently and just started it last week for weight loss. I was SHOCKED to find it carried over and improved my focal embouchure dystonia drastically!!! I'm actually very excited and hoping I can talk to my doctor about keeping me on it long-term if it helps me with my dystonia. I take a very small dosage of it. The only downside of it, is it makes me feel a little tingle all over...so when I practice, the sensation kind of freaks me out, as usually that warrants not a good sign. But she said it's normal. I use to take Tremor Miracle for a year and that helped me also, but too expensive. It is a dietary supplement for essential tremors that you can buy on Amazon.


This is actually a device I purchased back in January, but wasn’t able to use it until now because my phone was a piece of junk until I upgraded to my first iPhone ever. Woohoo! About time Katie.

This nifty device is actually a Transcranial Electric Current Stimulator! Usually you see neurologist use these in research studies in the form of a electrode cap placed onto someone’s head after covered in substance. Except, this was designed into a portable headset in order to improve motor skill learning of athletes and it is placed directly over the center of the scalp. The electrodes come in the form of a foam band that soaks in water and magnetically attaches to the inner lining of the headphones. The headset connects via bluetooth to an app on your phone which then takes you through stages of priming and electric currents.

It’s quite expensive, but I found it actually helps me a lot too!!! I am way more in control of my playing the day after using it, than days not using it. However, of course being a electric current stimulator, I have yet to build up my endurance in order to use it on a consistent basis since it is quite intense - it really works you out in a way I can’t describe, and it wasn’t designed for brass players in mind, but more for string players as it says. I am hopeful, even though will admit the priming is a bit uncomfortable. Currently I’m slowly and carefully testing it out. But so far, so good!


Okay that is all I have for now! I'm sure I'm forgetting something, but will come back and add more if I remember! I hope this helps and that some of this is insightful, if not interesting! If anyone has any questions, feel free to comment, e-mail, or reach out! - Katie Berglof